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8.20.2008 – The Link?

August 20, 2008 3 comments

It is RUMORED that, in the initiation rite of the 33rd degree of Freemasonry, a potential candidate is, at some point, asked to spit on the cross. For those that refuse, the leaders of the ceremony reply with a well done…that is the correct response…and welcome them in. However, it is said that for those that DO spit on the cross, they are told that they’ve made the right decision and only THOSE candidates are ushered into the ‘inner-sanctum’…the ‘elite’ if you will, of Freemasonry. Now grant you, I started this paragraph with the words ‘it is RUMORED’ for a reason. This is NOT verified information. However, for the sake of argument, let’s assume that it is.

With that begin said, there are books and theories that trace Freemasonry back to the Knights Templar. The protectors of the sacred ‘Holy Grail’. In many sources, the Holy Grail is NOT what most people believe it to be. It is not the ‘literal’ cup that was used during the last supper. The Grail is believed to be the sacred bloodlines of Jesus himself. Which obviously causes a great deal of problems for orthodox Christianity. If Jesus has a bloodline, he would have to have had children, and most likely a wife (many believe this to be Mary Magdalene). It is believed that the Templars (created originally by the Priory of Sion), had found proof of this bloodline and have been protecting that secret for centuries.

So, let’s say, for argument sake, that all of this is true. The Kights Templar DID, in fact, have PROOF of Jesus’ bloodline and humanity. Let’s also say that the theories are true that connect modern Freemasonry to that same group of Knights Templars. It would certainly make a lot of sense to have that final act of the 33rd degree be what it is rumored to be. Because, they would be ‘in the know’ of a secret that would render Christianity completely false.

A bold statement for sure. And one that I’m not committed to believing fully. But from reading Holy Blood, Holy Grail, and from many other sources on the Magdalene, it certainly bears consideration. And it certainly starts to make a lot of sense when you step back and look at the whole picture.





Not much to write here…just basically an update of recent readings…


I read the DaVinci Code in about 3 days. I believe that’s probably the fastest I’ve ever read of book of that size. The story was fantastic and I could not put the book down. It’s obviously a book of fiction. Of fictitious characters and story lines. However, the basic premise is based on a lot of theories brought forth from scholars and historians.


So, once finishing that book, I decided to purchase a copy of ‘Holy Blood, Holy Grail’. I’ve only just started reading this behemoth, but it’s extremely fascinating, and obviously where Dan Brown garnered a lot of his information for the DaVinci Code.


I’ve also had another intriguing book lent to me by a friend. It’s the Gospel of Thomas. This is one of the Gnostic Gospels that contains a bunch of quotes of Jesus that aren’t found in the biblical gospels. It’s supposedly written by one of the apostles, Thomas (‘Doubting’ Thomas).


Anyway…that’s all for now. I’ll probably have a lot more after I finish this book.



Recent Readings:


DaVinci Code : Dan Brown

Holy Blood, Holy Grail : Michael Baigent, Richard Leigh, Henry Lincoln

The Gospel of Thomas

7.08.2008 – Enlightenment



All through my life, there were times that I would do things that were considered ‘wrong’ or a ‘sin’ to the Christian world. Most times I wouldn’t say much in my own defense. I would merely sit and take the verbal lashings, only occasionally stating my doubts. At that point I would be given statements similar to this: “You were raised a Christian, you know that it’s true” or “This is what the word of God says about that..” etc etc. Always thinking in the back of my head that there was something wrong with that perspective, but not entirely understanding what or why. Today, I think it hit me.


I realized, today, that in all of my developing years, I was shut out from anything that wasn’t accepted by ‘the church’. I was hidden from any opposing opinions. Why would any group who wholeheartedly believes that their way it the ONLY way, be so dedicated to keeping their people from hearing any opposing viewpoints? If it IS indeed ‘the truth’, then wouldn’t everyone figure that out at some point? So, basically, I was force-fed ‘the truth’. But that was only one version of ‘the truth’.


I can remember not being allowed to engage in anything (movies, music, books) that may have an opinion that could sway me from my Christian upbringing and brain washing. The more I think about that, the more I start to realize that I was being hidden from something. I believe that ‘something’ to be the REAL ‘truth’. Or even being able to search for that truth.  How sad is it that the vast majority of the world is so insecure in their beliefs that they have to completely isolate their ‘initiates’ so that they don’t risk losing them to a differing perspective? If you ask me, that’s just more of an indication that what they are preaching is incorrect.


No, I have not found anything yet that I could accept as ‘truth’ really. But to look back and know that I was kept from searching for it or finding my own way has become a bit frustrating for me. It seems like so many wasted years trying to live a life that from all I can tell is a lie.

6.12.2008 – “Not a secret Organization, but and Organization with ‘secrets’”



I’m beginning to put together theories in my head about these quote/unquote “Secret Organizations”. ie the Freemasons, Knights Templar, The Rosicrucians, and the like. I’m starting to believe that the secrets that everyone thinks are so important to us as a society are nothing more than ‘knowledge’. Or maybe it would be better put as ‘ideas’ or ‘ways of thought’.


Let me explain. I’ve been doing a ton of reading lately (and I’ll site specific books below), and it seems that many of them have one thing in common. In the medieval times, free thought was a VERY serious “no-no”. With the power of the Popes and the Catholic Church in those times, any person who didn’t blindly follow what the Church said was right, was considered a heretic and would be subjected to some of the most horrible suffering that we could ever imagine. And then an untimely death, usually by slow burning on the pyre.


The sad thing is, these ‘heretical’ evils that the common people were accused of were sometimes nothing more than thoughts and ideas about how our universe is put together and how life works. Things like mathematics, art, and literature. All things that were considered ‘evil’ by the early church and often times associate with Satan worship and demon possession.


In our world today, we know that these things are natural sciences. It can almost not be comprehended that the ideas that all of us, and our children, now learn in school, were the very things that were condemned and were punishable by death in centuries gone by.


I am starting to believe that these ‘secret’ societies, that all seem to have found their origins during this time, were nothing more than groups of people that had very brilliant and creative minds. They had theories about our world. They were experimenting in science and math. Learning skills that today we take for granted. However, they needed a way to discuss, share, and learn without the risk of the wrath of a very unforgiving Christian church. The way to do this? Create an organization of very trusted colleagues where these ideas could be discussed. An organization where you had to go through heavy initiation to be proven trustworthy. Why? Because the cost of betrayal was death.


In the medieval times, the church (specifically the Roman Catholics) tried to control absolutely every part of life (much like today, though they obviously have less influence). They ruled with an iron fist. One that caused endless suffering, misery, torture, and death to many innocent people. Anyone who did anything (or was even accused of doing anything) contrary to the teachings of the church, guilty or not, was subjected to the cruelest of tortures until they confessed to the ‘crimes’ to which they’ve been charged. At that point they’d be sentenced to death anyway. I would imagine that death would be a welcomed end to the horrors they had been subjected to up until then. So, many probably admitted to their ‘crimes’ just to end the agony of the tortures once and for all.


My recent research:

Born in Blood – The Lost Secrets of Freemasonry – John J Robinson

The Templar’s Secret Island – Erling Haagenses & Henry Lincoln

The Secret History of Lucifer – Lynn Picknett

5.23.2008 – A Starting Point

I guess it’s just natural (since I am anything but a learned writer) to expect this to jump around quite a bit. Organization has never been something I’ve been particularly skilled at. Quite the opposite really! So, for the reader, this is certainly something to keep in mind! Of course, I don’t expect anyone to actually read this anyway, so I guess it really doesn’t matter how I write it!


The ‘Search for Answers’ has become a daily pursuit for me. I find myself digging into holes that have been around for millennia, but that I’ve never known the slightest thing about until recently.


Here’s the short list of topics over the last several months. Most likely not complete…but close enough for now.



The Knights Templar




The Lost Gospels/Gnostic Gospels

Sacred Geometry






What I’ve found which has surprised me, is that I feel like I’m becoming more at peace with myself. For those that know me well, know that that is QUITE a statement. I’ve NEVER been at peace. I’ve never been satisfied. It’s almost as if this quest has helped me take steps towards an ‘enlightenment’. Some sense of ‘at peace with the world’. The reality is that there is MUCH more to know and many more miles to travel down this road. But it’s quite amazing to me how quickly my thought processes and perceptions are changing.

5.09.2008 – Looking for Answers

(** for the first few posts, I’ll be posting information that i’ve written in previous months. Once I catch up, it will be new stuff in real time**)


In recent months, I’ve found myself in a place I’ve never been in before. A place that is many things. Sometimes it’s a scary place. Sometimes it’s an enlightening place. Sometimes it’s even a comforting place. More than anything, I find myself in a confusing place.


I’m not sure what’s brought this period along in my life. Or why all of a sudden it’s here. Maybe it’s growing older that causes this. Maybe it’s me becoming more satisfied with my place in life and my mind has more time to think about things. I guess when it comes down to it, the ‘whys’ really don’t matter. The fact is, I’ve arrived here, and now I’ve got to figure out where to go from here.


I suppose I should explain what ‘this place’ is at this point. I seem to have developed an insatiable thirst for knowledge. More specifically, knowledge or our origins. By my use of the word “Our” I mean, this human race. In the 21st century. How did we get here? Why do we believe the things we believe about our past? What forces are really at work in the world, universe, and beyond? Why do the various religions of the world believe what they believe? What do they have in common? Who’s right?


One thing is for sure…I don’t appreciate people telling me I’m wrong in my beliefs. I’d like to know who they think gives them the authority to say or even think that. I guess that’s my problem with organized religion. It’s either their way, or you’re wrong (even to the point of claiming that your ‘lost’). I guess, though, in their defense, they’d be hypocritical to believe what they believe without thinking that every other viewpoint is wrong. I, personally, want to know what EVERY ‘religion’ believes…and how they arrived at their theories. I think it’s only through that knowledge that we may be able to come to our own conclusions and maybe some REAL truth to what’s really going on.


As for MY beliefs? Well, I guess that’s really how I got here. I don’t entirely KNOW what my beliefs are. I have some theories (I’ll probably get into those later), but I’m not totally sold on anything. For a while, I figured I was atheist. It was my logical, scientifically thinking mind that took me there. However, lately, I’m thinking that maybe there is something out there. Though, I don’t believe that there is a single omnipotent force that willed the entire universe into existence and that punishes non-believing souls to an eternity of fire and brimstone. My upbringing would like me to believe those things, but my mature mind tells me how illogical that really is. Never in my life have I seen or experienced ANYTHING that I would consider to be ‘supernatural’. If there was even ONE instance that I could refer to of something that happened and I couldn’t apply a logical explanation to it, then I would have reason to doubt myself. But, no, there’s been nothing.